Minpei (:

I love HOMINPEI. ♥ !
She's always the one who knows me in my heart manzx!
She seriously understands me a lot,
although at times, she might make you pissed off by scolding vulgarities all that.
But overall, she's always the one who agrees with what I say & all that.
Love you HOMINPEI!

The thing I'm angry at, right now,
is still the thing when we're quarrelling at on our 2nd month.
I can't stand it when you keep on helping her, & I can't stand it when you can let go so easily,
you talk of course easy lahs, every fault is also I help you take down de hor.
Know your limits will you?
I don't know whether you're helping her or you're dumb & stupid.
Because even a three-year old kid knows that she is just acting innocent.
Wanting you back.
First passerby, I'm already very pissed off, & it's so obvious that she gave away my link.
Cause it's like the passerby asked for it in her blog, & she/he can easily come my blog in 3minutes?
The passerby is god huh? This obviously proves that she gave my link.
But what you said?
'Since ******* already never say anything liao, why you still keep on clinging to it?'
So, that was the time when i think, since that's the way you think, so be it then.
But after that, things still goes on like this, & even worse.
& you still think that she's at no fault.
Everyone around can see that she's acting pathetic,
& spamming XT's blog, I bet she did everything, & tried to push the blame to me,
what a bitch.
That time, you agreed, but in the end, I STILL HAD TO CHANGE MY LINK, JUST TO STOP ALL THESE FROM GOING ON.
The taiji is not yours, you can easily say sua means sua, what about me? Do you really think for me before?
Reflect yourself man, you always said that I never stand in your shoes & think. Did you really stand in my shoes & think before?
Guys are sensitive, girls are more.
I expected a better answer when I said I was going to tio her, but you said,
'You go tio her lorr, I won't tio you.' & you even put a smiley behind it,
fucking cruel, if it was you? How would you feel?
& you still love her, just say, no need to find excses & help her in all sorts of ways, I don't believe you're that dumb either. NT so what? NT then don't have brains is it?
If you're smart enough, you'll know what I'm telling you indirectly.
Seriously, I don't understand guys anymore.
I started to understand at first, but ended up going back to the original point again, I should be a lesbian yea?
Although together, I really don't see what's the point, since you said your love for me won't be as much as before,
& what's more, I think my love for you is fading too.
After so much lies, not only this. & muchmuch more. I really don't know when you'll stop your lies.
You care for me, yes, I can say that you really care for me a lot. But, we have no trust in each other at all.
Not at all, I told you the reason why I can't trust you already, it's because so many lie, but you, I don't get you.
& I DIDN'T FIND YOU FOR QUARREL, just stating what I feel.
Who toy who, I can't change your thinking.
If I really toy you, I no need to be so hurt, fuck life.
I even slit myself, I know you would say 'I never ask you to slit what, I did stop you, but you don't listen.'
I'm telling you, I slit is because of you, but I stubborn, can? Not blaming you.
& I don't know what's wrong with my body nowadays, without you, I can even die.
Maybe car accident, or vomit all the blood out?
Fuck, now God's punishing me too, can't they see that I'm suffering so much?
Without you, I can't survive, but with you, I'll be hurt. What should I do?

As for JunXiang, MinPei seriously didn't mean that, why can't you just understand what she's trying to convey to you? It's not your fault, neither hers, it's all because of the parents & counsellings & police. I know you wanted her to hide the relationship, but things aren't that simple, if it's so simple, I would rather have a pea-sized brain, so I wouldn't have thought so much. It';s much much more complicated, seriously, but if you really want to think that way, in that case, I can't say much, cause nothing's gonna change what your mind is thinking. Nothing.

Thanks Xinganbaobei, Darling & Bernard for cheering me up, felt so hopeless, ayes.